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NLE Choppa Says His Daughter Saved Him From Suicidal Thoughts

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NLE Choppa says that his soon-to-be three-year-old daughter, Clover, saved him from having suicidal thoughts. He reflected on his relationship with his “angel” during a post on Instagram, Saturday. Clover was born in June 2020.

“This is my ‘ANGEL,’” he wrote. “Clover Literally Changed My Life, The Reason My Spiritual Awakening Happened Cause I Knew Longevity In My Life Was Needed To Be In Yours. So Thank You Clover For Maturing Me Faster Than Anything That’s Ever Happened To Me In LIFE.”

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NLE Choppa At “Cottonwood2” Listening Party

NEW YORK, NEW YORK – MARCH 22: NLE Choppa during “Cottonwood2” NYC Listening Party on March 22, 2023 in New York City. (Photo by Johnny Nunez/WireImage)

From there, he continued: “You Are The Reason I Want Better, You Are The Reason I Love, You Are The Reason I LIVE. Before You Was Here I Was Contemplating Suicide, When I Found Out You Were Conceiving You Gave Me Something To Not Only Look Forward To, But Something To Live For! Thank You For Saving My Life My Little Goddess, IM FOREVER IN DEBT TO YOU, I Owe It All To You. Your The Reason I’m Still Here. SHE TURNS 3 NEXT MONTH.”

In the post, he included various videos of himself with Clover over the last three years. The clips were soundtracked by the song “Angel Pt. 1 (Trailer Version)” from the Fast X soundtrack. Fans celebrated NLE Choppa for being focused on his daughter in the comments section. One wrote: “Your a amazing dad.” Others added, “This is so fucking cute,” as well as “Taking care of yo lil one & handling biz… respect.”

NLE Choppa With Clover

Just months before Clover was born, NLE Choppa posted concerning messages about suicide on social media. “Imma Kill Myself The Last Day Of December 2020 Y’all Better Enjoy Me While Y’all Can,” he wrote at the time. “My Music Gone Live For Me Imma Be With Y’all. I Promise… My Music Gone Let You Know Every Thing You Need To Know, love y’all.”

Read More: NLE Choppa Shares Concerning Message: “Ima Kill Myself Last Day Of 2020”

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Vic Mensa Says Using Drugs For Creativity Nearly Led Him To Suicide

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Vic Mensa opened up about his history with drug use during a new cover story for Spin Magazine published on Monday. In the piece, he reflects on how he began using mushrooms as a teen, but things became much worse over the years as he went on to use drugs as a “creative crutch.” Eventually, he says that it made him suicidal.

“The first drug I really felt dependent on was mushrooms,” Vic Mensa admitted to the outlet. “I started doing them abusively. Probably 100 times a year when I was like 19. But it wasn’t soul-searching. I started to lean on it as a creative crutch, and eventually it just stopped working and I started having bad trips — I would feel like my throat was closing and I was dying.”

Vic Mensa At A Brandon Johnson Rally

CHICAGO, IL – MARCH 30: Rapper Vic Mensa performs at a rally for progressive mayoral candidate Brandon Johnson at the UIC Forum on March 30, 2023 in Chicago, Illinois. Johnson is set for a runoff against Paul Vallas on April 4th 2023 for the next Mayor of Chicago. (Photo by Jim Vondruska/Getty Images)

He continued: “In the pursuit of boosted creativity I started doing a lot of molly and ecstasy. I was going to the bathroom in the middle of a studio session and railing molly with the powder falling on the ground. And I’m rolling up a dollar bill, on my hands and knees railing it off the bathroom floor — definitely with piss mixed up in it. That stopped working, and just tanked my serotonin.”

From there, Mensa explained that he started using Adderall when he would crash on molly. “When the molly crashed, I was so depressed and started snorting Adderall,” he added. “Then that stopped working. I would use each drug to the max until it stopped working. And then I was feeling like I couldn’t create, because I needed these drugs but the drugs weren’t working. And so I was hellbent on killing myself. I was on a full warpath of suicide.”

Mensa explained that he was able to figure things out after an enlightening ayahuasca ceremony in San Diego. “When I did that first ayahuasca ceremony, my question for the medicine was: ‘Why do I feel so much pain?’” he revealed. “And I had a vision of seeing my mother’s blonde hair from my 5-year-old eyes. A higher voice came to me and said, ‘I used to want blue eyes. That is the root of my pain.’ I thought that was so revealing. It’s the first place I can really pinpoint it to within this lifetime: a sense of unworthiness because of not looking like my parents.”

Vic Mensa’s Spin Magazine Cover

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600 Breezy Went On A “Drug Binge” To Cope With GF’s Suicide

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Rappers often speak about their addictions, and 600 Breezy knows all too well what it’s like being dependent on a drug. Like many of his Rap peers, he struggled with addiction, telling VladTV that at 6’5″, he got down to 170 pounds. Breezy is in a much healthier place these days, but he’s revisiting times in his life when he was close to allowing his addictions to overwhelm him. “I was a skeleton,” he recalled. It occurred after his girlfriend took her own life.

“I just went on a three, four-month, just drug binge,” the rapper admitted. “Literally, at my mom house, laying on the floor, balled up in a corner with my grandad’s ashes or my cousins. Just trying to feel their energy. I just wanted to understand life more, because it was just like, ‘Aight, my girl not here, I don’t want to be here no more.’” However, there were people in his life who stepped in to remind him of all he had to live for.

600 Breezy Decides To Push Through The Pain

“She was a great part of my life. She taught me a lot. I got a lot from her. As like, she was only in my life for two years so why end my life for—you know what I’m saying?” he said of deciding against suicide, himself. “Do something stupid when I got kids that I gotta raise forever. Even when they’re 30, I’m still gonna have to be in they life. I still got my mom, I do something to myself…my mom. You know, I had to really sit back and think. I just used the drugs to cope, just to be in a numbness. Then I have to snap out of it.”

In September 2022, it was revealed that Raven Jackson, 600 Breezy’s girlfriend of two years, committed suicide. He publicly grieved the loss at the time, sharing photos of them together on social media. Breezy also posted screenshots of their last text conversation that suggested Jackson was struggling mentally and had been for some time.

600 Breezy Drank “Pints” Of Lean

Additionally, 600 Breezy revealed that the drug use resulted in him having health problems. “I ain’t seen the gym in months. It’s just like, I just wanna do drugs and do drugs and do drugs and just be numb. But, that ain’t the way to go.” Even sitting for the VladTV interview, Breezy admitted he was still in pain. “It’s killing me,” he admitted. “I was drinking Lean. Like, pints.”

“I did nothing but drugs, ’cause it was like, it was nothin’ in this world that anybody could tell me about anything. I just lost my woman, I did everything with her. If I traveled to work, she came with me. She was with me like she was my child, every day. It go from every day, talkin’ and being with somebody and now, you know. It’s like, she’s just gone. I don’t got an explanation, I don’t got nothing.” Watch 600 Breezy speak about his grief below.

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OnlyFans Model “Coconut Kitty” Dead In Probable Suicide

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Over the weekend, it was confirmed in a post to her 5.4 million IG followers that popular OnlyFans model Diana Deets, who is better knowns as “Coconut Kitty,” was found dead in an apparent suicide. Her age is still yet to be confirmed.

The post read, “It’s unfair. Life is unfair. We wish you guys could get to know her the way her friends and family did. See, she was such a light to this world. Truly she was always glowing. You could never slow that girl down. She was so hard headed and strong, but also just so kind with the biggest heart we have ever known. She was always trying to lift everyone up around her. She wanted everyone to win.” 

Deets claimed to be 24 years old for many years and in an exposé by Rolling Stone, it was discovered that she edited her photos considerably, which led to allegations that she was baiting pedophiles. In the article, Deets related the creation of her Coconut Kitty character to her visual art, explaining, “I wanted to make something that looked like a real-life anime character, small chin, big eyes, that was made in my likeness, because I use a picture of myself and I edit it. I just wanted to create a fantasy, just a character. And I was able to hide my identity and still make money off my art.” 

Deets was also accused of luring younger women to join OnlyFans, but in her response stated, “I wouldn’t do anything in an unsafe environment, and I wouldn’t attend myself if I was unsafe. And I wouldn’t do that to someone else if it was unsafe for them.” 

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OnlyFans Model “Coconut Kitty” Commits Suicide Following Pedo-Baiting Allegations

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On February 12th, Diana Deets (known online as “Coconut Kitty”), committed suicide. The OnlyFans model, who also was a mother, had received backlash after editing her photos to look child-like. According to the New York Post, Deets had previously suffered from depression. Her mental state may have been triggered further by the negative comments she received in light of the “pedo-baiting” allegations.

In a 2021 interview with Rolling Stone, Deets mentioned, “I did get tired of people commenting on my looks when I was camming. It kinda bothered me.” The magazine notes that the content creator, who also worked as an artist, initially had an interest in selling acrylic paintings. “I was like, ‘How can I make money off my art?’ and that’s how I decided to do digital art,” she explained to the outlet, “and that’s how I created Coconut Kitty.”

“Coconut Kitty” Received Backlash For Childlike Edits

“Coconut Kitty” was derived from Deets’s desire to create a “real-life anime” character. As a result, the Californian mom transformed her photos to reflect a small chin and big eyes. “I just wanted to create a fantasy, just a character,” Deets shared, “and I was able to hide my identity and still make money off my art.”

Still, the “fantasy” created by the OF model was quickly criticized, with anti-porn advocate Kate Oseen accusing Deets of “grooming,” as reported by Rolling Stone. Despite the controversy that Deets’ career had stirred up, her friends and family mourn their loss. A statement addressed to “all lovers and fans of Coconut” was posted on the late performer’s Instagram account to inform her 5.4 million followers of her death.

OF Stars’ Friends & Family Mourn Their Loss

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The post stated, “It’s unfair. Life is unfair. We wish you guys could get to know her the way her friends and family did. See, she was such a light to this world. Truly she was always glowing. You could never slow that girl down.” The statement continued to recognize Deet’s upbeat attitude, noting how she always wanted the best for everyone.

“She was so hard-headed and strong, but also just so kind with the biggest heart we have ever known,” read the statement. “She was always trying to lift everyone up around her.” Our thoughts are with Diana Deets’ loved ones at this time. RIP.

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tWitch’s Wife Allison Holker Posts Tribute Following Suicide, “We Miss You So Much”

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Taking a step back from social media following her husband Stephen “tWitch” Boss’ suicide death, Allison Holker returned with a heartbreaking tribute post on Wednesday (Dec. 21). Sharing a selfie the couple took prior to his unexpected passing, she shared “we miss you so much.”

“My ONE and ONLY Oh how my heart aches. We miss you so much,” she penned on Instagram, garnering over one million likes in the hours since she created the post.

The pair celebrated their ninth wedding anniversary just days before tWitch took his life. Both posted throwback wedding photos to honor the milestone.

tWitch competed on season three of So You Think You Can Dance, appeared in a number of films, and was also known for his work on The Ellen Show as a DJ and executive producer. Also a professional dancer, Holker and tWitch would often post their dance routines on social media.

The 40-year-old passed away earlier this month after suffering a self-inflicted gunshot wound to the head. His body was discovered in a motel room located in the Encino neighborhood of Los Angeles, California.

In a statement to People shortly after her husband’s death, Holker candidly spoke about tWitch’s family values and legacy. 

READ MORE: Columbus Short Implies tWitch May Have Ended His Life After Savings Loss

“Stephen lit up every room he stepped into. He valued family, friends and community above all else and leading with love and light was everything to him. He was the backbone of our family, the best husband and father, and an inspiration to his fans,” she told the outlet.

LOS ANGELES, CALIFORNIA – JANUARY 16: Dancers tWitch and Allison Holker attend a basketball game between the Los Angeles Clippers and the Utah Jazz at Staples Center on January 16, 2019 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Allen Berezovsky/Getty Images)

Holker then added, “To say he left a legacy would be an understatement, and his positive impact will continue to be felt. I am certain there won’t be a day that goes by that we won’t honor his memory. We ask for privacy during this difficult time for myself and especially for our three children.”

The famed dancer leaves behind his wife, their three shared children, and other loved ones. Our thoughts are with his family during this difficult time.

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Columbus Short Implies tWitch May Have Ended His Life After Savings Loss

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Shortly after news broke that Stephen “tWitch” Boss had died at age 40 after completing suicide, actor Columbus Short has offered a theory on why the famed dancer and DJ might’ve taken his own life.

In a video uploaded to social media, the Stomp The Yard star revealed that tWitch may have killed himself after losing his life savings in a bad investment.

“You guys don’t know what people are going through. People made investments. People do a lot of things, this is just a theory,” Short shares in the clip.

Saying that tWitch’s legacy “shall live on,” he continued, “But, what if you invest in something that took your whole life savings possibly? Yeah, it gets rough.”

Short then added that he doesn’t “want to speak too much on that.”

Per TMZ, unnamed sources recently revealed that the So You Think You Can Dance star wasn’t struggling with finances prior to his death. 

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LOS ANGELES, CALIFORNIA – OCTOBER 12: Stephen “tWitch” Boss attends the 2022 Industry Dance Awards at Avalon Hollywood & Bardot on October 12, 2022 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Momodu Mansaray/Getty Images)

After being discovered in a motel room, tWitch’s cause of death was later listed as a self-inflicted gunshot wound to the head, as declared by the Los Angeles County Medical Examiner. He was known for his incredibly diverse dance skills and time spent as a DJ and executive producer on The Ellen DeGeneres Show.

He and his family then received an outpour of support and tributes from his friends in the industry. Ciara, Dwayne “The Rock” Johnson, Justin Timberlake, and more spoke out about tWitch and the impact he had following the news.

In an Instagram post, DeGeneres also honored the late entertainer, writing, “I’m heartbroken. tWitch was pure love and light. He was my family, and I loved him with all my heart. I will miss him.”

tWitch leaves behind his wife, fellow dancer Allison Holker, and their three shared children.

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Stephen “tWitch” Boss Receives Tributes From Ciara, Ellen DeGeneres

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Stars are mourning the death of Stephen “tWitch” Boss today after news of his untimely death circulated. Boss was famously known as Ellen Degeneres’s DJ on her talk show, but he acquired a massive following on TikTok. He and his wife, Allison Holker Boss, regularly shared dance videos and funny skits on social media, making news of his death even more jarring for fans.

It has been reported that Boss took his own life, and more information has been shared about the circumstances. Boss was reportedly found in a motel or hotel bathroom by a maid after he failed to check out of his room.

Read More: Stephen “tWitch” Boss, DJ For Ellen DeGeneres, Dead At 40

“It is with the heaviest of hearts that I have to share my husband Stephen has left us,” Boss’s wife said in a statement. “Stephen lit up every room he stepped into. He valued family, friends and community above all else and leading with love and light was everything to him. He was the backbone of our family, the best husband and father, and an inspiration to his fans.”

There have been several tributes flooding social media, including one from Ciara. She shared a video of her dancing with Boss and included a prayerful caption.

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“I am so crushed to hear the news that you are no longer with us,” wrote the singer. “I’ve always known you as joy, laughter, good times, and a big smile! Heaven has gained an angel today! May you rest in paradise. Praying for your family during this difficult time ❤🙏🏽.”

Ellen Degeneres also expressed her devastation in an Instagram post.

“I’m heartbroken. tWitch was pure love and light. He was my family, and I loved him with all my heart. I will miss him. Please send your love and support to Allison and his beautiful children – Weslie, Maddox, and Zaia.”

We continue to send our sincerest condolences to Stephen Boss’s loved ones. Check out a few of his memorable social media posts below.

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Ab-Soul Opens Up About Surviving Suicide Attempt

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2022 turned out to be a highly productive year for the TDE camp but Ab-Soul is coming to close things out on a high note.

Though the roster typically has a few releases throughout the year, the heavy hitters came out to play in 2022. Kendrick Lamar emerged with his critically acclaimed, Grammy-nominated, Mr. Morale & The Big Steppers. On Friday, SZA finally came through with the follow-up to CTRL.

However, the TDE camp isn’t done yet. Ab-Soul is currently revving up for the release of his upcoming album, Herbert which drops this Friday. It marks his first release in six years, which undoubtedly had fans excited.

Ab-Soul’s opened up about his mental health in the past but in the song and video for “Do Better,” he speaks directly on depression. However, the video also suggests that the Control System artist also survived a suicide attempt.

During an interview with Rolling Stone, the rapper admitted that he nearly took his own life. Without going into too much detail, he said that he wrote much of the album prior to the attempt.

“Most of what you’ve heard, I wrote before … it,” Ab-Soul said. “I just wanna make it clear: You see me smiling, but it’s not funny. I think that’s just my way of healing from it.”

LOS ANGELES, CA – JUNE 27: Hip-hop artist Ab-Soul performs onstage during the Ice Cube, Kendrick Lamar, Snoop Dogg, Schoolboy Q, Ab-Soul, Jay Rock concert at Staples Center on June 27, 2015 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Earl Gibson/BET/Getty Images for BET)

Still, he said that he hopes his testimony can bring hope to others so they don’t feel like they’re going through their own issues alone.

“Me sharing my testimony — if it doesn’t help, it might let you know you’re not the only one going through it,” he said. “That’s what ultimately gives me the courage to put it out there.”

Ab-Soul’s new album, Herbert is due out on December 16th. The rapper’s upcoming project includes appearances from Russ, Joey Bada$$, Punch, and more. He also has production from James Blake, DJ Premier, and others.

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