Jorja Smith Is A Supportive Confidant In Her Melancholy ‘Home’ Video

Jorja Smith is a supportive confidant in the new video for “Home” from her lovelorn EP, Be Right Back. While the song’s lyrics debate leaving behind a picturesque but unfulfilling relationship for an uncertain future, the video portrays this dynamic visually, with Jorja playing the role of the nanny of a couple whose relationship has played itself out. As the wife contemplates telling her husband, lip-syncing the lyrics through a dinner party and a play date, Jorja looks on in supportive silence, letting her work through her tangled emotions.

“Home” is the fourth single from the EP after “Gone,” “Bussdown,” and “Addicted,” which arrived ahead of the rollout, and though all four songs convey different moods, they retain the through-line of pursuing personal freedom in lieu of the expectations of a stable relationship. Be Right Back was the British singer’s first project since 2018’s Lost & Found, her debut album containing the hit single “Blue Lights.”

Since then, Smith has released a number of non-album singles, including the Burna Boy-featuring “Be Honest,” as well as the wisftul “Come Over” with Jamaican dancehall star Popcaan. She also commented on the wave of 2020 anti-racist uprisings with “By Any Means.”

Watch Jorja Smith’s “Home” video above.

Meghan McCain Is Calling On The FBI To Free Britney Spears From Her Conservatorship: ‘This Is A Human Trafficking Issue’

In a passionate plea on Thursday morning, The View‘s Meghan McCain called on the FBI to essentially bust down doors and free Britney Spears from her conservatorship. McCain’s comments were in response to Spears’ explosive court testimony that she is forced to have an IUD in place to prevent pregnancy and is repeatedly prescribed questionable amounts of psychiatric medications to keep her compliant and working so her family can live off her financial empire.

During her remarks, McCain praised the #FreeBritney movement while accepting blame for being part of the media that has been “brutally unkind” and didn’t listen to Spears. “I actually believe this has reached the level where the FBI needs to be involved and extradite her from her home, away from these people at this very moment, because these are people that can continue the abuse in realtime,” McCain said.

After stating that Spears is “ostensibly a slave,” McCain went so far as to call the situation a human trafficking issue to bolster her claim that the FBI needs to get involved. Via Mediaite:

“I am sadly not surprised by this, but it’s much more extreme than I ever could have possibly imagined. I feel horrible for her,” McCain said. “I hope to God they get her out of this environment and this situation today. I think it is at that level, and if this were any other person not named Britney Spears, this is a human trafficking issue, and it should be treated as such.”

McCain’s thoughts were echoed by her co-hosts on The View including Sunny Hostin, who is an attorney and called Spears’ conservatorship “unprecedented” and “highly unusual.”

(Via The View on Twitter & Mediaite)

Travis Scott Partners With Dior For New Menswear Collection

Travis Scott is partnering with Dior Men and its artistic director Kim Jones for a collaborative Spring-Summer 2022 collection that is set to be revealed at one of Paris Fashion Week Men’s events on June 25.

Dior describes the reveal as an “unprecedented event [representing] the first full Dior collection ever created with a musician.”

Not much from the collection has been shown, but Scott was recently seen sporting a brown heavy-duty work jacket with the Dior logo plastered across the back.

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In the past, Jones has collaborated with KAWS, Kenny Scharf, Raymond Pettibon, Hajime Sorayama, and Daniel Arsham.

Similarly, Scott has had worked on numerous streetwear collaborations of his own in the past including Nike, Ksubi, BAPE, and McDonald’s. 

Forbes recently reported the huge earnings these collaborations netted the Astroworld rapper. Scott’s deal with McDonald’s earned him $5 million but was bumped to $15 million when incorporating his merch sales from the collab. His deal with Sony regarding the PS5 rewarded him with $1 million.

Earlier this week, Scott gave away 100 tickets to his Astroworld festival with a scavenger hunt for signed CACTI cans.

“Summer is back and all about going bigger,” Scott said in a statement. “We really wanted to do something special with CACTI for the fans who weren’t able to get their hands on Astroworld tickets. The winners are going to get the opportunity to vibe out with us at the festival and get a full-on immersive experience. We can’t wait to share this with them and everything else CACTI has planned for the rest of the year.”

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Adidas Yeezy 450 “Dark Slate” Release Date Unveiled: Photos

Kanye West’s Adidas Yeezy 450 certainly has a polarizing look to it thanks to its shark-tooth midsole and primeknit sock-like upper. It is a shoe that had been shown off all the way back in 2017 although it took four years before it finally got released to the public. An initial beige colorway was delivered to the masses just a few months ago and for the last few weeks, we have been seeing teasers for the new “Dark Slate” offering which is dropping very soon.

This new model is known for its all-black aesthetics that give fans that stealthy yet chunky look. Overall, it is a lowkey colorway, however, the silhouette is enough to make people turn their heads. So far, there are very few offerings of this shoe available and beyond the “Dark Slate” model, we haven’t seen any other colorways get teased. With this in mind, the “Dark Slate” colorway could prove to be highly sought after, especially after such a quick sellout on the first model.

As for the release date, you will be able to grab these as of tomorrow, June 25th at select stores. Let us know in the comments below whether or not these are going to be a must-cop.

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10 Producers Who Deserve More Love

In hip-hop, it’s important to make sure the pioneers and innovators are respected for their cultural contributions. The premise of this piece is simple enough — to give credit to the beatmakers that tend to fly under the radar in the wider conversation. Here are ten such producers, whose talent, musical catalog, and prolific work ethic are worthy of further recognition. 

Now in true crate-digging fashion, dive in. 


BIG K.R.I.T.

Upon penning a piece about rappers who self-produce, a lapse in judgment led to Big K.R.I.T. going unmentioned. It didn’t take long for many commenters to mobilize in favor of the Mississippi visionary, and a lesson was learned. Namely, Big K.R.I.T should not go unappreciated. In an effort to prevent any fellow hip-hop fan from making the same mistake I did, consider this a reminder of exactly what Krizzle has achieved behind the boards.

A tally from hip-hop statistics account “Hip-Hop By The Numbers” states that K.R.I.T has produced 71.1% of his then-318-song catalog, a total that amounts to two-hundred-and-twenty-six songs. And what’s most impressive about his production discography is the sheer versatility he exhibits throughout. He’s as nice with the samples as he is with the synthesizers, though never straying far from that classic country soul; instinctually, he can likely stand alongside any of the game’s heaviest hitters. Look no further than his impressive turn on Mass Appeal’s Rhythm Roulette, which reveals his beat-making mind at work.

WATCH: Big K.R.I.T. Shares 5 Important Tips on How To Make A Beat

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KNO

All hail the underground. Though not every hip-hop fan is attuned to the going-ons of the backpacker realm, there are many who at least appreciate the vast and expansive subculture. Those in the know are certainly aware of Cunninlynguists, a legendary group consisting of Deacon The Villain, Natti, and Kno — who happens to lace the bulk of their production. While his original work encapsulated the group’s zanieir spirit, as seen on projects like Will Rap For Food and Southernunderground he eventually adopted a more reflective and cinematic sound.

Releases like A Piece Of Strange and his solo album Death Is Silent reveal a producer with a deep understanding of sample manipulation. Not to mention an acute awareness of concepts like beauty and serenity, unafraid to embrace minimalism and use it to paint a picture — though never does he stray too far from hip-hop traditionalism as to appear unrecognizable. It’s easy to lose yourself in Kno’s production, even without the immersive lyricism of himself and his fellow Linguists.

LISTEN: CunninLynguists – Nothing To Give

DJ MUGGS

Despite being widely recognized as a legendary crew, Cypress Hill probably deserves more love than they receive. Being that he’s the primary producer behind seven of the group’s albums, DJ Muggs has amassed an incredible discography of classic records to his name. Not only has he laid the foundation for the Cypress sound as we know it, but he also held it down for no shortage of emcees, including Ice Cube, Xzibit, KRS-One, Mobb Deep, the GZA, Kurupt, Snoop Dogg, Ill Bill, Yelawolf, Mach Hommy, Flee Lord, and many more.

Most recently, Muggs has also been expanding his solo discography, having recently delivered a stunning and downright chilling album in Dies Occidendum. One need only give that project a spin to realize the depth of Muggs’ imagination, as it’s easily among the most life-like and vivid instrumental releases we’ve seen from a hip-hop producer in recent memory. Shortly thereafter, he linked with Yelawolf to lace the entirety of Mile Zero, a grimy and raw dose of back-to-basics hip-hop, a project that’s destined to fly under one too many radars this year. A true legend and among the best samplers in the game.

LISTEN: Xzibit – The Foundation (Prod. by DJ Muggs)

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NECRO

It goes without saying that the inventor of Death Rap is not for everybody. But those who have embraced the maniacal genius that is Necro can certainly attest to his acumen behind the boards. A clear scholar of hip-hop and horror alike, the New York underground legend has somehow managed to entangle both worlds in a twisted embrace. For the most part, his entire solo catalog consists of his own production, with early albums like I Need Drugs and Gory Days displaying his minimalist brutality in full X-rated glory.

Where he really proceeded to come into his own behind the boards, however, was when he began producing albums for his Psycho-Logical labelmates Ill Bill, Mr. Hyde, and Goretex – who together formed the group Circle Of Tyrants, who released their Necro-produced eponymous album in 2005. In addition to his own expansive catalog, Necro also produced acclaimed records like Non Phixion’s “Black Helicopters,” Cage’s haunting “Agent Orange,” and Raekwon and Ghostface Killah’s “Gihad.” A self-professed crate digger, Necro’s sampling prowess could stand against many of the recognized greats, though his flair for the disturbing may very well have kept him from universal acceptance from the hip-hop community.

LISTEN: Raekwon & Ghostface Killah – Gihad (prod. By Necro)

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DJ BATTLECAT

There’s no denying that DJ Battlecat has played a pivotal role in pioneering the signature sound of the west coast as we know it. There’s a reason he was enlisted to produce and engineer the upcoming album from Mount Westmore, a supergroup consisting of Snoop Dogg, Ice Cube, Too $hort, and E-40. The man behind the curtain for many a west coast classic, you’d be hard-pressed to find a producer further entrenched in the sonic DNA of an entire region.

What makes Battlecat such a force behind the boards is not only his instinct but his understanding of the tools at his disposal. A student of analog technology, Battlecat actively took the time to develop and hone an understanding of sound. As such, he began to build up his own bank of custom sounds, synthesizers shaped and oscillated from sine wave infancy. By putting in the time to learn the fundamentals — with a few mixing tips gleaned from a pre-NWA Dr. Dre — Battlecat would go on to earn the trust of damn near every rapper repping his coast. Snoop Dogg, Kurupt, Xzibit, Bad Azz, MC Eiht, E-40, The Eastsidaz — few producers can so effectively embody an entire region as Battlecat does the west.

WATCH: Battlecat Making A Beat

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JUICY J

He’ll probably be the first to tell you about the scope of his influence, but that doesn’t mean Juicy J isn’t absolutely correct. A key innovator in several musical movements — from Southern bounce to the dark stylings of horrorcore — J’s work behind the boards alongside fellow Three 6 Mafia member DJ Paul continues to be felt in the production of today. Never one for subtlety, J’s instrumentals tend to hit with ferocity, though even his more aggressive cuts are still somehow appropriate for the strip club.

A longtime veteran of the game, J’s longevity is seldom appreciated with the reverence it deserves. We’re talking about an artist who has been continuously setting the bar, creatively evolving, and adapting to whatever musical climate seems to be taking shape. He continues to produce at an elevated level, lining his own recent solo album The Hustle Continues with banger after banger. In fact, there’s a case to be made that Juicy J is arguably the most consistent producer in hip-hop, having originally gotten his start in the early nineties and remaining active to this day.

LISTEN: Three 6 Mafia, UGK (Underground Kingz), Project Pat – Sippin On Some Syrup (prod. By Juicy J & DJ Paul)

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MR. PORTER

Though Denaun Porter has largely slowed his output, the Detroit producer was once a key figure in the early millennium hip-hop landscape. Though he never quite reached the status of a household name, the D12 vet actually played a role in conjuring some undeniable bangers. G-Unit’s “Stunt 101.” Xzibit’s “Multiply.” Busta Rhymes’ “Riot.” 50 Cent’s “P.I.M.P.” Eminem’s “On Fire.” But a few of his finest selections, each one highlighting his unique mind for production.

A student of the classic Detroit sound, the marriage of clean bass and filthy percussion as pioneered by the late Dilla, Mr. Porter honed his craft producing the bulk of Eminem’s Infinite project. Once D12’s Devil’s Night entered the production stages, he found himself under the wing of Dr. Dre, gaining another musical mentor and widening the scope of his versatility. Most recently, he held it down with contributions to DMX’s Exodus project, working on “Take Control” and “Walking In The Rain.” Boasting a sharp ear for melody, Porter’s instrumentals are among the sharpest in the game, lush blends of acoustic instruments, synthesizers, and bouncy arrangements.

LISTEN: G-Unit – Stunt 101 (Prod. by Mr. Porter)

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ERICK SERMON

Hip-hop heads obviously know all about E Double, but in conversations about the game’s legendary producers, his name is forgotten all too often. A startling omission, given the depth of the EPMD lyricist’s catalog. With eight studio albums to his name — including 2000’s Erick Onasis, which marked the recorded debut of a young Rick “Teflon” Ross — Sermon was largely the architect of his own sound. In addition to his own catalog, Sermon also laid backdrops for his Def Squad contemporaries, serving as a notable contributor to many of Redman’s classic albums.

Like others on this list, The Green-Eyed Bandit transitioned gracefully between eras, his music adapting to the changing times. As the new millennium arose, Sermon’s old-school, sample-driven sound underwent a crisp and bouncy new transformation, culminating in standout cuts on Redman’s slept-on cult classic Malpractice and more. Even to this day, Sermon continues to keep the production sharp, having contributed to Conway The Machine’s emotionally devastating “Forever Droppin Tears” and the KXNG Crooked / Joell Ortiz’s duet “Get Ya Money.”

LISTEN: Redman – Lick A Shot (Prod. by Erick Sermon)

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HI-TEK

Another legendary beatmaker who seldom receives the appreciation he deserves, it’s time to start recognizing the greatness of Hi-Tek on a wider level. Having amassed a catalog truly lined with classics, including his own Hi-Teknology album (peep “The Sun God” for a reminder) and his many contributions to Mos Def & Talib Kweli Are Black Star, Hi-Tek’s style is what really elevates his game.

Like many hip-hop production legends who emerged in the 1990s, Hi-Tek is naturally nice with the samples. There’s a reason why his Blackstar cut “Respiration” became such a widely-jacked beat on the freestyle circuit. He also contributed bangers to G-Unit and 50 Cent on Beg For Mercy and The Massacre, lacing “G-Unit,” “Eye For An Eye,” and “Get In My Car.” He wasn’t relegated to the east coast either, as he connected with several prominent west coast legends — Snoop Dogg and Dr. Dre — becoming trusted collaborators in the process. You might be surprised at how deep Tek’s catalog truly runs, and chances are if you do a little digging, you’ll find he’s laced a beat for your favorite rapper at one stage or another.

WATCH: Rhythm Roulette: Hi-Tek 

ROCKWILDER

Though it’s likely that many fans have heard at least one of Rockwilder’s many bangers, it still feels like the Queens-born producer remains under-appreciated in the grand scheme of things. In reality, his talent and distinctive sound are worthy of recognition — look no further than the clip in which he concocts a beat on the fly, using elements that might have baffled a less creative producer. Having scored credits for Big Pun, JAY-Z, Eminem, Method Man, Redman, Busta Rhymes, Mos Def, LL Cool J, Xzibit, 50 Cent, Nate Dogg, and many more, Rockwilder’s production repertoire is lined with storied collaborations.

What really makes him stand out — aside from the fact he has a classic duet named in his honor — is how unique his production truly is. Generally tending to favor crisp and clean synthesizers, Rockwilder also shines as a monster on the MPC, a skill set that allows him to realize his instincts in real-time, much to the delight of whoever’s lucky enough to bear witness. If you see Rockwilder’s name on the production credits, expect the unexpected. It might be a bass-fueled bounce. It might be an eccentric and playful synth blend. It might be a sampled nostalgic joint. A jack of all trades and a consistent master across the board.

LISTEN: Mos Def ft. Pharoahe Monch & Nate Dogg – Oh No (Prod. by Rockwilder)

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Jay Williams Completely Forgets Basketball History, Blames It On Hackers

Yesterday was huge for the Boston Celtics as they officially hired Ime Udoka as their next head coach. Udoka was the assistant coach for the Brooklyn Nets and coming into the offseason, many pundits believed he would find a home somewhere in the league as a head coach. He is immensely talented and he is certainly going to have an impact on the Celtics roster which is full of young and talented players. 

To celebrate the news, Jay Williams of ESPN took to Twitter to congratulate Udoka. Unfortunately, Williams made a pretty embarrassing error as he claimed that Udoka was the first black head coach in the history of the Celtics. This immediately got people’s attention as they were quick to remind him that Bill Russell, KC Jones, and Doc Rivers were all iconic coaches for the franchise.

After his tweet went viral, Williams eventually deleted it and blamed a hacker for the error. As he claims in the tweet below, he even changed his password to make sure it never happens again.

“As it relates to the Boston Celtics tweet that came from my account a couple of hours ago… I did not post that & my passcode has now been changed,” he wrote.

Using the hacker excuse seems like a massive stretch here especially when you consider how most hackers go to Twitter with the goal of spewing hate as opposed to congratulatory messages. Either way, this was a bad look for Williams and we’re sure he will do better research in the future.

Beyoncé, André 3000, & Kanye West Threw The “Party” Of The Decade

When Slick Rick rapped “La-di-da-di, we like to party/We don’t cause trouble, we don’t bother nobody” over Doug E Fresh’s iconic beatboxing, the two Hip-Hop vanguards created a rap classic that would go on to be sampled over 500 times. Twenty-six years after “La Di Da Di” was released, it would go on to be incorporated into a Beyoncé song, which would go on to be one of the best Hip-Hop and R&B crossovers of the 2010s.

“Party,” served as the second track on Beyoncé’s highly anticipated fourth solo studio album 4, and the warm album cut features mind-blowing contributions from two of the most influential figures in Hip-Hop history: Kanye West and André 3000.

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With Ye handling the production alongside Jeff Bhasker, Beyoncé delivering a soul-warming vocal performance, and Three Stacks absolutely killing one of his characteristically rare features, “Party” was an instant fan-favorite, and the support for the song led it being pushed as 4‘s third official single. Even though it wasn’t able to take home the Grammy award for “Best Rap-Sung Collaboration,” Beyoncé, André 3000, Kanye West’s rare team-up is still remembered fondly a full decade after its release.

Celebrate the 10-year anniversary of 4 by listening to “Party” below.

Quotable Lyrics

Set the scene, 3000 degrees
I ain’t worried about them, f*ck n*ggas over there
But they worry about me
I got a homeboy named Butter
And another homeboy there, n*gga named Cheese
F*ck with me, baby, I’ll make it milk till it drip down your knees
Spit this sh*t for real-o, Brain Brillo
Kiddo say he looks up to me, this just makes me feel old

Donald Trump Was Closer To Dying From COVID-19 Than Previously Thought: Report

Former President Donald Trump reportedly came close to death during his battle with COVID-19, last October, according to a new book written by Washington Post reporters Damian Paletta and Yasmeen Abutaleb. Nightmare Scenario: Inside the Trump Administration’s Response to the Pandemic That Changed History analyzes the COVID-19 pandemic inside the Trump White House during 2020.

“Hours after his tweet announcing he and first lady Melania Trump had coronavirus infections, the president began a rapid spiral downward,” an excerpt published in the Washington Post reads. “His fever spiked, and his blood oxygen level fell below 94 percent, at one point dipping into the 80s. Sean Conley, the White House physician, attended the president at his bedside. Trump was given oxygen to stabilize him.”

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Paletta and Abutaleb write that “doctors gave Trump an eight-gram dose of two monoclonal antibodies through an intravenous tube. That experimental treatment was what had required the FDA’s sign-off. He was also given a first dose of the antiviral drug remdesivir, also by IV. That drug was authorized for use but still hard to get for many patients because it was in short supply.”

Trump was taken to Walter Reed National Military Medical Center, where some of his aides reportedly feared he wouldn’t return from alive.

The book’s authors report that “at least two of those who were briefed on Trump’s medical condition that weekend said he was gravely ill and feared that he wouldn’t make it out of Walter Reed.”

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Marzz Evokes The Brightest And Most Vibrant Colors All By Living In Her Truest Aura

At the young age of 21, Louisville-bred singer Marzz joined the talented cast of R&B singers that are present on the up-and-coming Keep Cool Records roster. Her knack for emotive ballads made her a perfect fit on the label while her teenage-esque heartbreak stories helped her stand out on her own without fading into the background behind her skilled labelmates.

There are many other things that make Marzz stand out. The singer has synesthesia, a neurological condition that gives you the ability to see sounds as color. She also identifies as gay, something that once confined her to a bubble in fear of her parents and families’ reaction. She eventually popped that bubble to enjoy life in her truest form. These are all small pieces to the puzzle that make Marzz who she is, but they certainly don’t define her.

An emphasis on inclusivity and striving to make that a reality in all corners of her life are additional things that make Marzz the promising young singer she is. Fresh off the release of her debut EP, Love Letterz, we caught up with the singer to talk about the new project, her sprawling collection of notebooks, how Kehlani’s SweetSexySavage influenced her, and more.

So your new EP, Love Letterz, is inspired by your special mood notebooks. I’ve read that you keep them everywhere you go and have 29 of them.

Yes, actually, I have like 36 of them just sitting in my backpack right now. I have synesthesia, where I can see colors when I’m creating or just in general from listening to something whether it’s on the TV or I’m hearing somebody talk, I can see their aura. I have these notebooks where if I’m angry, I write in my red notebook. When I was little, I didn’t really express myself verbally, I would always have to write something down and I’d be like, “No, no, this is what I want to tell you.” I’d literally hold up the notebook and show them like, “This is what I want to tell you,” but I’d be holding my red notebook, this is when I’m angry. A yellow notebook, this is when I’m sad. A purple notebook when I’m frustrated. A blue notebook when I’m happy. That’s really how I go about those and whatever I’m feeling, that’s the mood notebook that I write in. It’s the way that I write my songs as well.

When did you first start using or creating these mood notebooks and how has your continued use with them shaped the way you write and convey emotion?

I started writing in my notebooks around like, I ain’t gonna lie, I didn’t have a phone, so literally the only thing I could use was paper and pencil. My mom didn’t give me a phone till seventh grade, I had this little Blackberry Slider, I thought I was doing my thing. When I was little, I believe I was into poetry, I used to watch a lot of Kevin Hart doing stand-up comedies. This is something I’ve never even told anybody: When I really first started getting into writing, I thought I was gonna be a comedian, but I was like nah, I’m funny, but that’s not what I would want to do. So I just started writing down my feelings. I used to listen to Kehlani and her album, SweetSexySavage, a lot because everything that she was talking about just connected with me. I was still trying to figure out who I was and she really helped bring that creativity out of me. I was like, “Well maybe today, I should start songwriting” or “Maybe I should just write a song.”

On this EP, the songs come off as diary entries. First-person, heavy in reflection and questioning life’s events, and expressive in a way that you might not be in person. Were you perhaps hesitant to take these entries of sorts and put them into song for the world to hear?

I’ll say it’s a little bit of both, to be honest. I’m a very open-minded person and I’m very understanding. I’ve come to a point in my life where I really don’t care what people say. I have to do this, I have to put my feelings out because if not, it’s going to eat me up alive. Even if it helps somebody else and even if it’s a different circumstance, they can know that they have somebody they can relate to and I’m always going to be fulfilling them with love, joy, and positivity. They can always come to me and listen to my songs and just be at ease, knowing that everything is about to be okay and it is okay.

My favorite song on Love Letterz is “Done Witcha,” simply for the moment of finally deciding to move on from someone who is no longer best for you. What personally pushed you to say enough is enough?

Really again, going back to my mentality, I was in a really bad headspace. My mom and dad just got through a divorce, we just got situated, and I got introduced to my stepdad, all of this was happening at once. I came out to my family at — I think it was my grandma’s, Christmas or Thanksgiving one of the two, I know it was a lot of food, I don’t remember. All my cousins and stuff were there, I was like, “Y’all, I’m gay.” Everybody was looking at me and chaos just broke loose and I was like, “Oh my God…” That moment was really when I put myself in a state where I was like, “No, I gotta get myself together. I have to get my mind straight,” because I stopped going to school. I stopped posting stuff on Instagram and I was always on Instagram, so everybody was like, “Yo, what’s going on with you?” I didn’t talk to anyone when I went to school. I was just in a really bad headspace and I was like, “No, I can’t let the enemy take me like this, he can’t destroy my joy.” I don’t like hypocrites, so if I say imma do something, I gotta do it. It’s like, alright, I gotta put my big girl pants on and thug it out. You only have one life, you have to make yourself happy.

When you came out to your family about your sexuality, you popped the bubble you were in where you suppressed your true self. How did things change for Marzz after this moment?

My mom, I believe that she always knew that I was going to be who I am today because when I was younger, I was a straight tomboy. I’m more masculine than anything and me coming to her [and] actually telling her my sexuality and what I’m into, it kind of threw her off, but she was like, “Oh, I already knew,” so I was more at ease. Her reaction was calmer than I expected, definitely, because my mom is super spiritual so I was kind of in shock. I was like, well, okay, that kind of makes me go into [coming out to] my family. That reaction, they were baffled, they were like, “Oh, my God, I can’t believe it,” and it was just like, dang, y’all really gonna do me like that? It really took for my mom to explain to them, as far as the difference within religion, I guess Christianity, with how heavy they are in that. She was like, love is love, God would want us to love her regardless of what I choose, we have a choice. She said, if this is what I choose to do, that she supports me strongly and they should too. Some people still don’t [support me] that are in my family. A lot of people are more open-minded to it and they understand it because they know that this is truly what I want. I appreciate them for being open with me. That really put me in a headspace as to how I’m going to express this in my music. I’m gonna take and really push myself out there and even if it’s my family listening to my music, they can understand my headspace. They can understand what’s going on in my mind, what I’m feeling at the moment, and if I experienced anything at the moment, they know why I was feeling that way.

You very much live a life of and in color. Between your vibrant appearance, which gave you the nickname Skittles, and living with synesthesia, your world is vibrant. Has this affected your view of the world in terms of seeing more than just the black and white of things?

I’ve always been taught not to judge a book by its cover. I ain’t gonna lie, it’s hard not judging people, but we can’t do that. You can have an opinion, but it’s not right for you to make an assumption about somebody or perspective about somebody regardless of skin color. With me being a Black female, I ain’t gonna lie, it is kind of scary out here because I feel like I have to always watch my back just because of anything. I’d rather be cautious in making sure that I’m just doing right by people and making sure that I’m right within. You can do what you please, but imma make sure I make peace with any and everybody regardless of the circumstance, whether you’re an ex-enemy or enemy.

As you continue to grow and release more and more music, what do you hope your listeners take away from you as an artist through your work?

Believe it or not, I hope that they take the pain that I experienced and turn — even if it’s dealing with their own — that around for the better. I’m gonna keep saying it because I’ve been self-reflecting on myself so much, I’m so tapped in with myself, it’s crazy. This quarantine stuff made me tap into myself in so much, but I feel like it’s very important for people to have a commitment to self-love. I feel like that’s so important because a lot of people don’t genuinely love themselves. They’re out here trying to find love by doing the craziest stuff, just for somebody to love them. Like a sweetheart, you got to love yourself first. I really want them to take the pride that I have in also changing my life around for the better. For me, it’s okay to put yourself first, it’s okay to be selfish. Take that moment that you need, but also, know to get focused and move on, so you can keep growing.

Love Letterz is out now via Keep Cool/RCA Records. Get it here.